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Thursday, 26 November 2009

  • Randoms

    Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note blog with 25 random facts, habits, goals, or things about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

    1) FACT: I enjoy vodka when I'm depressed

    2) HABIT: Biting my nails.

    3) GOAL: To pay off all my credit card bills by the 30th

    4) When I smoke to much I cough up some nasty shit

    5) FACT: I procrastinate like its my job

    6) HABIT: staring at the tattoo on my wrist

    7) GOAL: find someone who will annoy me so i have an excuse to kick some ass

    8) I keep thinking about jail and how much it sucks

    9) FACT: I enjoy organic food over non organic

    10) HABIT: I drive entirely way too fast, of course instead of slowing down, i just bought myself a radar detector

    11) GOAL: to quit smoking...eventually

    12) Damnit, I just broke my candle lighter

    13) FACT: I should drink water instead of vodka, my liver would thank me

    14) HABIT: throwing dirty clothes on my bedroom floor

    15) GOAL: buy new tires to replace the balding ones on my jeep

    16) I don't want anything for Christmas i just want to enjoy my familys company

    17) FACT: if you have an eyebrow ring and decide to take it out, there will still be 2 holes in your face 2 months after

    18) I should buy my mom something nice

    19) FACT: I spoil people I love with presents

    20) I could go for some kiwi or pineapple right now

    21) FACT: Cats sleep 16 to 18 hours per day.

    22) HABIT: Cursing.

    23) GOAL: work out more often

    24) FACT:There are 10 human body parts that are only 3 letters long (eye hip arm leg ear toe jaw rib lip gum)

    25) My mom is such a spaz

Monday, 16 November 2009

  • I just got back from court.

    My 3 co defendants came to a conclusion with their sentencing.

    Michael (the one who commited the actual robbery) got 3 years in state prison. He has to do 85% of his time before he is eligible for parole.

    Britt and John (lookouts) each got 3 6 4. Which is almost a year. With good behavoir and time served they will probably get out within 3 - 5 months.

    I (getaway) driver do not know what I'm getting yet. The prosecutor needed more time to think about what to do with me since I have done a lot of things to better myself since the robbery (ie- going to rehabs, counseling, church, and getting a good full time job.

    I don't know what the outcome will be.

    I do know that I'm at the end of my rope. I'm so emotionally spent from everything right now (prison, aids, friends, family, wanting to use drugs) I'm just overwhelmed and so emotional.

    I wish I could just get this part of life over and done with.

Saturday, 14 November 2009

  • Parents

    Ah good old parentals....

    I was never close to my parents. We never talked much or showed much affection. Mostly it was arguing and fighting all day everyday. If it wasn't my sister and I, it was my mother and father, if it wasn't my mother and father it was one of the kids arguing with the adult.

    There was hurt
    There were lies
    There were mistakes
    and trials

    Just like every other family.
    But, sometimes I look at my friends or just random strangers and I see how close they are with their mom and dad or one or the other. I see the way they talk and laugh. They actually go out together and have a good time. They shop, and cook, go to movies, church, on vacations...anything.
    I want that.
    I desire that with my parents.

    I want to be able to open up to them without feeling judged.

    I went to a friends house out of state a while ago. I'll never forget the first time I went there. Her whole family talks to eachother and love eachother. They laugh and joke but they also can have serious heart to hearts. They ate dinner together and afterward they played board games and card games! and it was fun, really fun. For the first time I felt like I wanted that with my family, I felt what it was like to be in a real family and actually enjoy each others company.

    Don't get me wrong my parents love me.
    I know for a fact my mom cares for me. They have been very supportive toward me, especially with everything going on. I didn't exactly make it easy on them as I was growing up, I was always very rebellious. I hope one day I can actually get along with them, because I do love them, very much. I wish that I would be given a chance to show it.

    What about you?
    Do you get a long with your parents?
    If not, do you wish you did?
    And if so, is it hard to stay close to them?

Monday, 09 November 2009

  • Yo momma! What did you just say?!

    My mother and I went to Wegmens today to go food shopping.

    My mom is a very cautious driver.
    Don't get me wrong, she doesn't drive like 5 below the speed limit or anything, but when she's out, especially in a shopping center she's very careful.

    It was packed and as we circled we finally found a spot, that she very slowly....carefully....cautiously entered.

    The woman next to her jumps out of her car and starts SCREAMING and cussing at my mom. She was mad because my mom was moving too slow and she was very close to the car.

    My mom responded very calmly and said she was moving so slow so she wouldn't hit the womans car. This woman had the audacity to get in my mothers face! Through the window!!

    Thats where I come in.

    I don't care what you say to me.
    I don't care if you punch ME in the face or cuss me out.
    But my mom?

    HELL NO
    I never had so much adrenaline and anger go through me in my life.

    I raced to my mothers side of the car and flipped out. She's lucky I didnt grab her by the neck and choke her.
    I told her to get the fuck out of my mothers face and if she had a problem she could deal with me. She proceeded to talk more shit, saying she was gonna fuck my mom up. I pretty much let her know that if she so much as laid a finger on my mother I would be smashing her face into the cement.

    She left. Mumbling all kinds of shit under her breath.
    I was just so shocked!
    All because my mom was moving too slow?!

    Yeah.

    Yo momma jokes are funny.
    Getting in my moms face is not.

    I would kill for my mother. I was enraged at this woman and almost couldn't hold it back anymore.

    Thank God she backed down. I wasn't tryna have the po po show up.

    My heart is still racing.
    Wouldn't you have done the same thing?!

Thursday, 29 October 2009

  • Don't Shoot Me

    He was 11, I was 12.

    The kids on the block called him a whiner, a big baby, what have you.

    Light blonde hair, big blue eyes, he was taller than most kids, and had a huge smile.
    I remember his father very well. He was an alcoholic that probably has skin cancer now because he fried himself every summer by sitting outside by the pool. When he got drunk he would get angry at this boy. I remember as a small girl we were playing outside and he didn’t do the chores his father asked him to. It was only afternoon time and he was already wasted. I watched as he lifted the boy off his feet by his neck and threw him to the ground like a rag doll. I didn’t know what to do, I panicked so I went to help him up and make sure he was ok. The father screamed at me to go home. I did as I was told. I cried walking home down the street for I feared for him.
    That boy began to get angry very easily and would fight with other kids on the block almost everyday. We started to hang out everyday and I ended up having the biggest crush on him, just like any young girl would have. He was my first kiss, the first boy I ever like at all actually.

    One summer day we all went to another kid’s house. His name was Tim. He was an asshole of a kid, dirty as hell, and always had something smart to say. For some reason he hated the boy I liked and made fun of him constantly. We had all snuck in his house and were smoking the butts of cigarettes that his parents left in the ash tray. My boy and Tim started arguing, just like every other time. The boy then went in the other room and came out with a rifle, all of us froze…

    He pointed the gun at the face of the boy. I’ll never forget his words “I’m gonna fucking shoot you, how bout that?!”The boy covered his face and turned just as Tim pulled the trigger, sending a bullet through his hand skinning his face, blowing off his ear, and coming out the back of his head. The boy ran as he grabbed his head that was gushing blood. He jumped down a flight of stairs before running out front and collapsing on the front lawn. A mutual friend Kyle ripped off his shirt to put pressure on the wound as the boy cried in agony. Another boy Andrew wrestled down Tim, and the police were called. As the police came rushing, with an ambulance not far behind, there were video cameras and news anchors taping as they rushed him into the ambulance.

    He was in the hospital for 5 months and didn’t full recover until a year afterword. The bullet missed his brain by only a few centimeters. He was lucky to be alive. I went to the hospital, I saw his father weeping. The man who had beaten his son when he was drunk and angry was crying because his son almost died. I saw that man and his wife this morning while I stopped to get my regular cup of coffee before work. His father has been sober since the day that happened.

    As I stood talking to the boys parents this morning I looked to my right as he came walking out the door. It was him, his name is Brent, but everyone always calls him Buddy. Buddy walked out and said “what is this? A family reunion?! Wheres my invite?” The boy who was almost killed walked out, his head held high, that big smile that I remember so clearly, he was handsome, and had the kindest look in his eyes. He greeted me with a big hug. His hand still scarred, as well as his ear and neck. But, that small boy (Buddy) has grown up and is loving life more than ever.
    If he can, shouldn’t we all?

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